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Awake

Oh, here I am.

Awake.

Anyone who knows projects management will know the time/cost/quality relationship of projects. Short on time? It will either cost a fortune or quality will suffer. Got a tight budget? Your quality will suffer unless you’ve got heaps of time. This is project management 101, to get something done successfully you gotta assess how you’ll manage time, money and quality.

I’ve realised this totally relates to life. When I work too much (time poor) , quality in my life suffers and I stress. My spending goes through the roof to compensate because I’m seeking expensive ‘quick’ joy (i.e. shopping, drinks, convenience). Of course these joys are external, and therefore not my own. Without a clear intent and design for this project (life), we don’t control the time/quality/cost of our life. We fall into our societal plan – can you guess what that looks like? Hint: Money trumps time everytime and quality is not balanced because it’s 100% externally provided.

Build a zoo enclosure for a human and what would be in there? I very much doubt a desk, an asinine deadline and a 10 hour days under false lighting. I very much doubt shopping malls, debt, jumbo lattes and jewellery.

If I stepped back and imagine building my perfect habitat to meet my real needs as an adult female human being, it would probably be something like this:
– a large community where I can love and experience joy
– an open space where I can breath fresh air and see the open sky
– a responsibility (job) to provide for those I love, to work physically, to feel satisfied with what I achieve and reap the benefits of the work I do
– a place clear of clutter and distraction. Clear of ‘stuff’. All things of value would be made by my community (music, art, gardens, stories)

After 3 months lost back in my ‘old tracks’, I’ve awoken and seen where overworking, overthinking and over consuming has gotten me. The old tracks are deep, but they can be relaid. It’s a new day!

A new chance to live on purpose. With purpose. For a purpose.

Angie

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What Are You Really Hungry For?

The 19th century French Physiologist Claude Bernard noted that any living organism must continually be able to satisfy a number of needs in order to maintain an independent life and survive.

We know that as animals there are some basics we need to survive. Things like water, food, air, protection/shelter, safety from harm, etc. Many animals also have psychological needs required to survive like community, family, love, purpose, satisfaction, courage, confidence and so on. Having these things satisfies us and when one or several are lacking we become unhappy and unsettled until we can fulfill our needs once again.

In our abundant Western world, food is a common ‘filler’ we use to find comfort when something is lacking in life. As I write this I am in a 6 month long plateau so close to my health goals and I know what is holding me back is that I still regularly indulge in food as a way to feel good. So for the past 6 months I’ve been all about food, trying to fix a symptom because it is psychologically safer than addressing the real problem.

Avoiding the real problem is the reason so many people never reach their potential. We avoid facing the demons because they are scary. We avoid searching for what makes us hunger because we are afraid we will never find it. We aren’t worthy of it. We don’t deserve it.

My hunger is for people, community, connection. Since the day I started this blog I’ve want to say that, but even to say it now is terrifying. Sometimes having your family on the other side of the planet and being a foreigner in a different place is a challenge I don’t feel up to. Sometimes my anxiety about people’s acceptance of me is too much for me to brave new social situations or touch base with someone I really like. I fear my connections because I still struggle to see myself as worthy and lovable and not-flawed.

I just turned 29. This year as I continue on my mission of wellness I know where my development needs to be. It is not food and it is not exercise, these things are not what is holding me back. It’s loving myself and finding people to love too. I am going to keep challenging myself and my self-esteem so I can foster my existing relationships and create new ones. I am going to create a community of friends one interaction at a time despite my fears. I am going to keep working on me.

What are you hungry for?

What if failure was the key to success?

Howdy!

One of the things I have wanted to do in preparation for starting my own Personal Training business is start developing a library of one page guides that I can give to clients when they are facing common struggles/disappointments/barriers.

Today I created my first one which you can view by clicking here: What if failure was the key to success?

It’s a short lesson on why I believe people habitually fail and why this is actually a great opportunity to learn something about ourselves.

In the long run these will look sexy and professional but I am not letting myself enjoy the fun that is Photoshop (I kinda love it) until I get my study completed.  Did I mention I am not going on Facebook until I finish study either? Sometimes flexing your discipline muscle is required when you want something bad enough. Two assignments done this weekend, obviously its working!

Have a kick ass week!

-Angie

Reflections On My First Three Day Juice Cleanse

Early last week the sun really started to shine and I suddenly became aware that winter was well and truly over. I decided I needed to do something to mark the end of hibernation and in true spring fashion I decided to do a cleanse.juices

In 2012 I did my first cleanse, Dr Alejando Jungers Clean Cleanse for 2 weeks (which involved 1 solid meal and 2 liquid meals a day plus a host of supplements). In the end I found it a bit overwhelming and this took away from the psychological benefits, but thats mostly to do with how I approached it and the fact that I tried my first cleanse for 2 weeks! Don’t get me wrong, I felt physically amazing at times, but as my main goal was to lose weight I tried to only have juices (not smoothies or soups) it just left me starving, especially after 14 days. Lesson learned there: starving yourself isn’t fun (duhh). Continue reading

The Ridiculousness of Self Help Stigma

Tell most people you are going to the gym to get fit and you get heaps of praise.
Tell most people you are trying to eat clean whole food and you get heaps of encouragement. Hell, you can tell most people you are doing pretty unhealthy things like crazy soup diets and obsessive amounts of running, and people are still usually accepting, encouraging and asking 101 questions about your plan to see if it could work for them too!ebcecfc41c4791c5b6afd2924a142a9a

But why is it when the topic of self-help & personal development comes into the conversation, people get weirded out? Continue reading

TGIF Sesame Dumplings with a Bean Sprout Salad

IMG_4588It’s Friday.

For me, it’s been the weekend since about 1 PM, when I made the completely selfish but unapologetic decision to ditch work after lunch. I parked myself at a sunny bistro table, indulged in a peppermint tea and decadent treat (almond cake topped with mascarpone, salted caramel-filling and fig and pear glaze), and spent a few hours dreaming big. Continue reading

Why Falling Off the Wagon is a Good Thing

Can I confess something?fall-off-the-wagon

For the past 2 weeks, I have been struggling with my wellness. Somewhere along the way my stress management faltered and I have reverted back to old behaviours like: comfort eating; thinking negative thoughts; harbouring self-doubt and self-criticism; loosing sleep and more.

To use the popular phrase, I have ‘fallen off the wagon‘. Continue reading