Awake

Oh, here I am.

Awake.

Anyone who knows projects management will know the time/cost/quality relationship of projects. Short on time? It will either cost a fortune or quality will suffer. Got a tight budget? Your quality will suffer unless you’ve got heaps of time. This is project management 101, to get something done successfully you gotta assess how you’ll manage time, money and quality.

I’ve realised this totally relates to life. When I work too much (time poor) , quality in my life suffers and I stress. My spending goes through the roof to compensate because I’m seeking expensive ‘quick’ joy (i.e. shopping, drinks, convenience). Of course these joys are external, and therefore not my own. Without a clear intent and design for this project (life), we don’t control the time/quality/cost of our life. We fall into our societal plan – can you guess what that looks like? Hint: Money trumps time everytime and quality is not balanced because it’s 100% externally provided.

Build a zoo enclosure for a human and what would be in there? I very much doubt a desk, an asinine deadline and a 10 hour days under false lighting. I very much doubt shopping malls, debt, jumbo lattes and jewellery.

If I stepped back and imagine building my perfect habitat to meet my real needs as an adult female human being, it would probably be something like this:
– a large community where I can love and experience joy
– an open space where I can breath fresh air and see the open sky
– a responsibility (job) to provide for those I love, to work physically, to feel satisfied with what I achieve and reap the benefits of the work I do
– a place clear of clutter and distraction. Clear of ‘stuff’. All things of value would be made by my community (music, art, gardens, stories)

After 3 months lost back in my ‘old tracks’, I’ve awoken and seen where overworking, overthinking and over consuming has gotten me. The old tracks are deep, but they can be relaid. It’s a new day!

A new chance to live on purpose. With purpose. For a purpose.

Angie